Tied Down and Drowning

Sooo this is a really old vent that i did on paper in a sketch pad like three sketch pads back.

Something people might not know about me is that i have a huge fear of drowning, like it affected my summer a little last year, i pretty much refused to tube, i barely swam, mainly cuz Kassy moved away and i have no friends , now i actually love swimming, a lot and i'm pretty good at it. It's not like i'd drown just from swimming and so that isn't what scares me, but the fact that if something happened, like i got tied to the bottom of a pool of water, wouldn't happen to many people but so what, or i fell out of my tube and got hurt and wasn't able to swim, the life jacket aside, it's weird, or even when i went to my friend's pool who has one in her backyard and a ton of people were there, everyone was dunking each other and rough housing, our usual deal, but every time someone, Nathanial and Scott and the occasional other person dunked me and kept me under, Nathanial lol, it freaked me out and i tried to come up for air really quick without people realizing i was afraid of drowning. I have a pretty okay rep for being kind of tough, i suppose, not HUGE of course, i'm not Nathanial lol, but still i didn't want my friends to really know that i was scared of it.

Gahh and the worst part is, it's not even my greatest fear and i've made such a huge deal about it, i have quite a few fears actually, but my largest one is one i really am terrified of, and the worst part about it is it isn't a physical thing, it is completely mental and emotional, i guess, it's not some deal about getting close to people but something that retains to only myself.

Gahhhh long description, i'm done now. The person in the picture is supposed to be me actually, i wear that tank top, back shorts and brownish hair. No warning but if it needs one i'll put it up. Hope the picture is okay, and good day.